Monday of last week was the hardest day we have had in our new home so far. Adrienne and I were both frustrated and didn’t know how to communicate with each other with our (my) words sounding “like darts.” Our little girl caught on to our frustration and acted out most of the day in response to us.
There were a lot of reasons why, but the main reason is we found out we would have to wait longer for our income to get to us…and bills were coming due quickly.
When it came down to it, we were both afraid and tried and secretly asking the Father in our hearts “why is it this hard?!” and “have you left us alone in this?”
We know the right answers but sometimes our hearts wander into the wilderness driven by fear. The Spirit let us stay in that wilderness for as long as he thought best.
On Tuesday, after more frustration, I sent out a text message to a group and asked them to pray for us. To pray that we would see the Father’s faithfulness with our hearts. They graciously agreed to and gave wise counsel.
I got back to our house from meeting some people and found a letter from people we hardly know. In this letter was a very unexpected gift- they had written us a check because the Lord had put us on their hearts. Completely unlooked for. They have never done anything like this before.
My words here do not express what the Father did in my heart. We have to pay our bills so the money is gratefully appreciated, but what matters more is that the Father showed us that we were wrong…he had not left us to fend for ourselves.
But he didn’t announce to the world that he is a Giver. He simply announced it to us. He announced it to us in a way that spoke to the secret doubts in our hearts.
But, because he is answering our heart questions I want to share with whoever listen that sometimes the Father provides in secret in order to speak to our secrets.
Eventually though, everything the Father does in secret will be shown in the lives of those who are learning to trust him.
Oh such grace!!!!!
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